Weeks 13-15

So, these past few weeks have all been a bit of a blur of sickness, resting and being bored at home.

Thankfully, by weeks 14 and 15 I'm FINALLY starting to feel a little better! Yes I still retch for pretty much no reason at almost any time, but I haven't been physically sick in a while and I seem to be able to control the nausea much better.

These past few weeks have been so horribly debilitating, I never imagined I could ever feel that ill!

Still no real bump at week 13 but by weeks 14 and 15 there is definitely something there! I'll pop a piccie in my next post!

Im really excited as next week we have our 16 week Midwife appointment and get to hopefully, hear our little ones heart beat!

I can't wait!

The Weirdest Pregnancy 'Symptoms' I Ever Googled

Any ladies currently enduring their TWW will know what I'm talking about.

The constant 'symptom' spotting that goes on among us is so rife there is even a bloomin' website dedicated to us crazy ladies, aptly called TwoWeekWait  where you can go and obsess over your 'symptoms' with other ladies in the same situation!

I for one was guilty of googling the most absurd 'symptoms' on the quest for my big fat positive, and have decided to put embarrassment aside and show you.

(These are actual questions that I googled, so Please don't judge me!)

 'Does twitching in my eye mean I'm pregnant' - No, It probably meant I was tired, stressed or in need of an eye test. 

 'My top lip is swollen, am I pregnant?'- Er, no- It was a reaction to a lip balm I was using.

'I have a runny nose, am I pregnant?'- Again, no- I just had a cold.

'I have cramps in my legs, am I pregnant'?- No, I just over did it at the gym.

While symptom spotting can drive you mad, It did help me pass the time during the two week wait, which felt like it went on forever!

For the record, the month I actually got pregnant was the month I had pretty much no 'symptoms' at all!

Trying To Conceive Is Hard

Before we got our news, we were TTC for 6 months and while that is a relatively short amount of time, for me it felt like a LIFETIME.

Anyone else who is currently trying for a baby will understand how each month is such a roller-coaster of emotions.

You start off  positive and optimistic

Your period  has just gone and your gearing up for another month of baby making and are sure that this month will be the month it happens.

You anxiously start peeing on ovulation sticks

 You start peeing on your sticks around 10-14 days after your period started and wait to see those two pink lines show up that give you the green light to get baby making! 

A positive result (2 parallel lines) on an ovulation stick means that you're due to ovulate in the next 24-36 hours (though it isn't a guarantee of ovulation). You still believe this is going to be your month. 

You then enter the abyss that is the dreaded Two Week Wait (TWW) WEEK 1

 The two week wait is the longest wait of your life, EVER, until you either get your period or get your big fat positive. I think the TWW should be split in two. The first week is not so bad. You wouldn't be experiencing any symptoms if you were pregnant, and you feel excited about the following week.

You enter the 2nd week of the TWW 

This weeks SUCKS. There is no denying it. By the 2nd week of the TWW you are analysing every niggle and twinge. You stare at your boobs for hours wondering if they've got bigger and are constantly checking to see if they feel sore or sensitive. You also find yourself googling every single thing you are experiencing to see if its a pregnancy symptom and are addicted to the website www.twoweekwait.com   

 At the end of the TWW you then find yourself on knicker watch- every time you go to the loo you wonder if your period has arrived and decide you cant wait to find out any longer, you're going to take a test.

You take a Test

You know you shouldn't, you're only 8-9 days past ovulation and know that even if you are pregnant, you're unlikely to get a positive result, but cant stop yourself anyway.

 Its  BFN (Big fat negative) and you feel horrible and wish you'd never done the test in the first place. But your boobs DO still feel sore, so maybe, just maybe....

You get your period

 And you probably get it on the same sodding day as you wasted £6 on a pregnancy test. Great. Those 'symptoms' you thought you had? Yeah, that was PMS. Mother Nature is a cruel witch and the symptoms of PMS are often similar to those of pregnancy. 

You cry, you feel upset that another month has gone by and you still haven't got the news you so wish.

Then, before you have a chance to mourn, the cycle starts all over again.

I described the whole process as being a Roller-coaster that you desperately want to get off but know that you can't.

If you stop being optimistic, you know it'll all fall apart, so all you can do is carry on, hoping each month that this month will be the one.

Yes it sucks, but when it is finally the month, all of the others fade into the distance and it all feels worth it.